ENTRY : let it take over.

Everything was just screwed up.

Skipped Module1 of Pure Chemistry yesterday to have prata with the girls. Then we went home to get prepared (: Cindy nd Jayne came over to my house. They like my silly room ! Hurrs. After which I helped Jayne with her makeup nd pedicure (I'm quite good lah) as well as mine hahah. By the tym we were ready to go off, it was already about 7.30pm. Trained down to meet the others.

Nd then the mess came. MOS was horrendously filled with so many youngsters, many who were like bengs nd lians (I apologise) hanging around the entire place. Well, there were crowds of good-looking people overall. Met into friends nd some sorts, all the familiar faces ahah. The queue was effing long so I decided to find a friend who sold us the tickets, hoping that she would be able to bring us in. Some of them decided to give up waiting nd left. Marcus nd his friends came later on trying to get in too. Waited for a fking 3 solid hours standing. Sheesh. But after many attempts, to no avail. Time was getting late, more bouncers turned up. There wasn't any chance for us to sneak in etc. Maybe we should have went earlier as checking would not have been so strict so we would surely get in ? Fucked up pls. There was even a barrier after midnight. We left the place in the end, not even going into the area at all. Rarrhh.

You can never know how pissed I am lah. Steam man >:(( Everyone is. I didn't even get to sell off the tickets. Took a cab home from there with Mich nd was fuming the whole ride through. Even the dumb driver didn't dare speak lol. Mum wasn't too happy about all this, neither am I. Wasting so much money just for a stupid night when I'd rather spend it all on something more reproductive. A time of partying was over in such a short time. Without doing ANYTHING. How fuck is that ? hahah.

MOS : How could you cheat people of their money ? Selling tickets to everyone without bothering about the number of clubbers that the place is able to accommodate. Nd certainly it would be much much better if there was music nd tents outside the entrance, so that people waiting or hanging around could just party outside nd groove. Am I not right ? I'm sure that many others would appreciate it too yeah. Last night was totally off-hand. Awful experience.

Continued with my complains to Shir nd others today. Ahahah. We had extra lessons till noon. Okay I'm already trying to cool down over the stupid matter. Then left for prata nd macs :DD yummy food. Came home early to rest after that. Lalas mann. Added more stuff to my blog -points. Lol. Anw, found this from an email :

October Baby
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

Laugh please.

ENTRY : Set me free-

Fuck.
Sorry for being so crude ):
I'm brooding over it yet again. Miss him so.
I still have my strawberry lollipop ? Sigh.

Had tuition on sunday morning nd went home after. Packed my room a little. Watched cable the whole day too. Pretty boring a day I suppose ?

MT Olevels are done with yesterday (: It wasn't all bad lah, but many mistakes spotted. I'm glad that it's already over so we can relax for the time being. Went to have lunch at Tamp's ljs :DD yummy, steamy hot chicken ehehehhehs. Then went home to get a shower nd changed before meeting Cindy.

Jayne nd Shir came along after nd we trained down to town, wanting to get our stuffs. Famous Amos is superb pls. Then looked around Forever21 nd Topshop but to no avail. Took pictures though ! Our favourite hahahs. Walked on to Fareast nd bought my black top from Candle ): COST ME ! hurrs. helped jayne nd cindy choose their stuffs as well (x settled on everything by 9pm nd back to home lol. I can't wait for the night pls.

ENTRY : Forget about sweet love.

Yesterday's parent-teacher conference was pretty much okay I guess ? My results reflected badly this time round, especially the Mathematics. Mum was telling me off about stuff while waiting for the bus to the mrt station. Rarhh. Then we trained down to town to meet Aunty Cindy (who waited for 2hrs) for some shopping (: She gave me a big hugg ! Ahah. Yes, the Great Singapore's Sale commence :DD



The shop's closed early though, so only managed to purchase those footwear I've been wanting to get. Anw, mum wasn't in the mood to shop too, complaining about wearing heels. Sheesh. So we went to get some sides from Ajisen nd ate at Wisma's Food Republic. Had our ebi prawns, gyozas, popiahs, fried carrot cake, dim sums nd drinks (x Yum yumms please. Oh mum asked me about ggr nd bgr. Damn lol. She insisted that she's right about everything lah. Afraid that I might be into a GGR. Hur who am I kidding ? Aunty also asked me about smoking amongst youngsters nowadays. Lalas man. We dropped by Nike nd Forever21 too. Wanted to get the shoes but there wasn't anymore sizes. Then the tops i wanted were all gone ! Oh my ):


Headed down to Dad's pub at Lucky Plaza. Played with the touch-screen machine while they were still drinking :\ HAHAH. I like the games. After which we went off to pick up Ah kor nd his girlfriend since it was way past midnight. Reached home at 2am ! Too tired to blog last night.

Well, midnight shopping only applies today nd next week 2nd-3rd June. Bahh. I'd better start on the online learning program though :\ But I'm lazyy. Ehehehhehs. Shall have my lunch now, yummy spaghetti =) Nd yes, PS : I'll be more strict with my English from now i suppose. Helps for preparation of O levels. Teachers are reading blogs as well ! Goodness ahah.

ENTRY : i dont wnna be a stupid girl-

yesterday, school's screwed up. went to get bubble tea after school before heading home (: Blue Coral ehehehhehs. showered nd changed. then trained down to town. i was sleeping through the whole ride lol. looked around at Forever21 :DD i love that shop. then had to meet up with marcus for the tickets at cityhall so i trained back >:( tapped out nd had to tap in again rarrh. anw, he looked good lah for his young age ? ahah nd all the while i've been picturing him in my mind, him as a little boy hurhur. the tickets do look lyk brochures, sheesh. oh ! lucky thing is that it starts from 8 till late, not 9. so i have a higher possibility to go >:) after which i went back to wisma again. lalas mann. my ezlink has negative value alrd heh.


tried on some tops. although nyce, pretty expensive for my budget ND there wasn't any that matches my yellow skirt ): AHH. i'd look lyk some bright weirdo. bad choice of colour to start with. then i went up to Topshop as well ? that top i wanted wasn't on sale alrd ! rawrr. i need help mann.

today's the collection of report books. marmi will be going to sister's school first since it's at Ang Mo Kio while mine's at Bedok. see the distance ? hahah. yeah, my timing is at 5.15pm onwards so i'm still waiting at home for her call. currently watching MTV sea now (x darn cool pls. (i'm trying to keep my calm hahahs) nothing much to do alrd =\ i can't be bothered about studying right now.

ENTRY : sweet nightmare.

tuesday
got back our english pprs >:(( i missed a slight 0.5 mark to obtain a B4 lah ? very saddening. then we went to ws macs for lunch. did our emath homework alrd.

then marmi suddenly checked on me ? wthh. but yeah, she cabbed home with sister first. went home ltr nd talked to her about my results. well sort of. she said i had to stay at home for the holidays ; means grounded lah. but i tried to talk her into letting me off for maybe 2 days ? since i've alrd planned to go MOS. bought the tickets alrd i don't care (x yet she haven't given me a proper reply.

wednesday
last to get back was our ss pprs =\ pathetic. did not do very well for section B hahah. at least we passed eh (: ate at ws foodcourt. had dessert yummy. then was told that they won't be going on tuesday ): effing disappointed but in no position to do anything also. decided to leave earlier, jayne had to meet someone too ahah. marmi was alrd at home when i went back ? so surprising. i had a good long sleep :DD

tmr's collection of tickets at cityhall. most likely i would go walkwalk-shopping myself a while too ? nobody's free i suppose. then friday would be parent-tcher meeting nd getting the report books. rarrh.

what's going on ? i don't get it. i don't get anything. tell me why.

ENTRY : pretty woman.

i've uploaded more pictures for this entry (:

back to school. had homeworks nd all. very disappointed ? i failed my emath papers as well, to my disbelief. could see that tcher wasn't too happy lah (neither am i). cried lyk a fking ass >:(( nd parent-tcher conference is coming up soon. rarrh. alrytes we saw our silly class photo. how awful [: bah. click to enlarge.

spotted me yet ? if not, here's a blurred close up.


we headed to Macs for lunch. ate to my heart's content since i didn't have any recess =\ then we did a little work before giving up. took pictures :DD we love jaslyn's camera hfone feature. click to enlarge.whoopees hurr.1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 :]in the library corner being boredd.
the retarhds out lose ! rawrrs.we were feeling blackk. nd crazyy. so "act cutee wOrRxXZ" -ahems.

nd oh the joy. we've gotten ourselves tickets to MOS x)
for 18 bucks we'd better have a good tym ahah.
oh VAUNT. thnks !

i found a print i took. ehehehhehs.


nd this is originally done by ME two years back. yet i've noticed it in ppl's friendsters (?) so i've been wondering how they gotten it when i haven't been using it. sheesh.


oh nd here's my current bedsheet cover ! pretty style eh ? HAHAH. ilike Ausinno brand.

Yes. I'm trying to be a happy fucktardd nd live life as it is.
): Sighs.

I WANT MENG PO TANGG. ='( nd to erase off my pain.

ENTRY : pop princess hold my hand-

marmi has been nagging at me for 3 consecutive days alrd >:(( so f pls.

had conference for hours on saturday before deciding to go out. left the house to walk walk with jaslyn nd geraldine. being cooped up at home do nothing is bad for health lah =\ we only went tamp to EAT ahahs. when one's stress or depress, eating becomes a habit. read magazines at Times too (: stayed out late till close to midnight mann. marmi questioned me -rawrr. i even had to have dinner so late oh my tiann.


had my chocolate swiss roll from Hans. then squid head from Old Chang Kee. then banana yoghurt milkshake from Sweet Talk. then the classic ice cream cone from the supermarket. then a small sprite from MACS. nd finally a slice of AMERICAN CHEESECAKE from Cafe Cartel.

cheesecake ? it's my all tym favourite )): sigh.
-flashbacks.

today was back to tuition at 201. i was late for half an hour but managed to catch up fast (: tcher wasn't angry with me. nd i found out that i did better than them although i flunked amath. still not a good thing lah. we did integration for this lesson after which we left for tamp. i wanted to share with syy what happened since she asked too. but you know me, i prefer to keep things to myself. what for pull others down when it isn't their worries ? i'll smile alryte.

so we walked around before settling down at ljs for lunch. talked about the pretty normal stuffs nd looked around shops. met into bestie cheryl after so long =) she's SO tall lah hahs. then got our banana milkshakes on the way home. yummy drink.

still ate porridge :X effing bloated. but i'm annoyed that they ate my dumpling which was for myself >:( hmpfs. watched Date Movie tgt with family in the living room. then da ge called me ? 2 other persons also msged. others left me msgs on the previous post. hmmms. i'm fine ): please dont be too nyce. i don't deserve it eh ? hai. it's only been 2 days. i still have a long way to battle through.

dinner was prepared by daddy beforehand (father's love hees). then my current favourite show started on cable chn56 :DD ER MO ZAI SHEN BIAN -superr love it. sister had second thoughts on the show (see nyce ryte) ehehehhehs. i can't wait for next episode.

can't be bothered to do my homeworks leh ? RARRH.
read all the past entries i have to date. silly stuffs but i like.
240105 ? laugh.
i'm quite contented for the tym being. all those tyms. those concerns. thanks guys.

ENTRY : over nd done with.

190506 today is a farking BLACK day.
it started off with a bad hair day =more results. what can i do or say, okay i'll just laugh them off ):

English : -
Chinese : 60/100 B4
Amath : 48.1/100 D7
Emath : -
Pure chem : 41.7 /100 E8
Sub PhyBio : (physics 58/100)(biology 62.4/100) 60.2/100 B4
Sub GeogSS : (geography 26/50)

it's lyk i just needed 2 more pathetic marks to pass amath ? that is super saddening lah. the rest i knew i didn't do very well because i only studied some parts.

went tamp with the usuals (: okay but i hate that place. met into some people nd all. lunched at ljs, then we had to wait for the NFFs to finish their food (after some tym) so that jaslyn can _____. after which we went off to ws again. ate macs ice cream ; yummy. then went to the library to do some reading (er magazines) until around 0705pm.

all i did was ate nd slept when home.
until i received his msg at 1131pm -
nd that was how it all ended.

should i be happy or disappointed ? i'm a pessimist. realised that i should be initiating it quite some tym alrd. yet because it's too difficult for me. i had no clue why we've distant nd drifted. can tell me was it my fault ? maybe all along he's been giving hints by not msging close to a month.

how many tyms that friends have been trying to tell me : don't think so much. give up. move on. let go. for afterall, it seems lyk i'm the only one trying hard to hold on (on the other hand was he?). i didn't know what to do alrd, nd not even know why it all ended up this way. but i was so stubborn not to listen. WHYY. at one point i thought the reason was due to my not giving in all into this relationship. but look, it turned out to be just lyk the others : it won't last long. its making me cry all over again. perhaps we were too fast tgt.

i thought it was gnna be much much better than those previous. i've tried my best to make myself trust guys again. i hoped for a miracle. yet soon enough, i'm torn apart. not only was my self-esteem affected, but so were my studies nd attitude. my heart is dead nd empty. i'm such a failure. IF ONLY SOMEONE CAN KILL ME BECAUSE I WANT TO DIE. bang me down, shoot me whatever i don't care. what am i to look forward to from now ? it's lyk as if part of me i gone.

i've decided not to go into any other relationship as for now. i need quite a while to get over it all. i'm sick nd tired too. i'd rather stick to my girls. at least we have more to share. or maybe i might even isolate myself away from people. being alone won't pull me down as much as this. everything's a misery because of problems. the state of unwanted mess.

it's the 2nd month 22nd day
hurts alot to part for now
esp when there's still feelings ;
but i'd say thanks for all those lovely tyms we had.
nd if we ever had another chance -
i most certainly would.

it was just another heartbreak.

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i can't sleep well >:(( i have many qns.
have u ever loved me at all ? do u know i've been crying all this while becos of u ? don't tell me my waiting meant nothing to u ? how long have u been wanting to give up ?
or is it because of me ? have i made u very upset ? if i did. then i would let go easily. because seeing u unhappy because of me is the last thing i want to do.
it's gnna take me along tym nd i'll try my best.
but i'm afraid to go out bcos everything would remind me of us_
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ENTRY : let's fly away-

lalas mann =\ feeling so emo-ish (?) ah whatever.

tuesday
went out with shir to plaza sg (: we had a really nyce tym tgt. we walked around the whole place in search for macs to get our milkshake but to no avail. rarhh. so i had my this lemonade juice from andersens' while she got herself mcflurry ahahs. played 2 tyms of percussion master with her ! since it was her first try, ehehehhehs :DD not bad lah okays ? anyhoo, silly me got PANGSEH-ED last minute W/O KNOWING =( it's super saddening yanno ? lucky my girl's always by my side (i hope) so we went to buy some correction fluid nd took the train back. i fking stood down nd cried lyk an idiot in the train lah hai. girl sent me a thotful msg hahas (even though she was just beside me!) then headed down to Pasir Ris Park to graffiti the areas =\ i grabbed mac's banana milkshake nd munch house's noodles for us too =)


we gotten more mosquito bites than quality tym to ourselves lol. oh wells, she had to leave early so we couldn't go to the rocks. sent her off to flag her cab, that familiar spot. after which i walked off myself to go home.


wednesday
school-ed nd all. had a big break down after recess ): pretty saddening. made my eyes blotchy, dirtied the desk with my tears. wth ? hmmm. they all thought it was because of THAT. but only partly to it, i have more problems that affected me lah. they just won't get it eh ? my life's a misery that puts me down. legion photo-taking today afternoon, nd then to ws for lunch with the usuals. got home nd plonked early to bed. heard marmi opening nd closing the drawers of my stuffs. WTF. have no idea what she's up to lah, but yeah she even pretended to be nyce nd walked out of the room after realising i awoked.

thursday
got back some results. shocked faces. super horrible to an extent i wished i didn't had any. pure chemistry had many blanks. stupid careless mistakes nd not knowing that there was a part b) caused me a difference of 2 grades for sub`biology as i lost 8 marks.

pure chemistry : 41/100 E8
sub`biology : 62.4/100 B4
sub`physics : 58/100 C5

i guessed those study groups weren't really so effective as thought to be ? ahahs. we got to do out own self-revision alrd mann :O no more macs for me pls. went ws to have our lunch nd slept in the library lols ! woke up with a stupid left ache on me, jaslyn had many hurts as well ! hees. geraldine's perfectly fine xDD went home. marmi's behaving weirdly infront of me ! >:(( she has been noticing me all the tym lah. sheesh, there's really something to it aye. today she's gnna sleep in my room. pffft.


let's hope tmr's a brighter one. pls ?
- imiss darling.

ENTRY : BEEP

back to school yet again (but there is a holiday for us today !) we are gnna have MT drills every day from 0740 to 1015 till 25 may =\ ahahh. but the sec2s worse, theirs is lyk whole school day ya ? lol. had class photo-taking. i suppose i look stupid lah ? i FORCED a smile, how retarhded can i get x( but lucky this last year of schooling, i'm standing up instead (though it's just 2nd row). went back class nd talked to shir. we took pictures ! hahah.


he msged me ! (: i feel contented. but what's the details for ltr? i have no idea. please don't give up on me.

OH MY TIANN. i've gotten myself into alot of trouble >:((

1) my results for MT prelim totally demoralized me ? ): i couldn't even get a B3 for the papers. hai. what more an A2 when i can't surpass a B. marmi will be unhappy about this.

2) went to slack at our usual place. this tym round we were SUPERR unfortunate. after eating at the foodcourt nd walking around, we went down to get macs banana milkshake (so yummy sweet). jayne left with melody so only left the three of us wandering around aimlessly. we decided to walk to downtown ? bumped into NFF there, so we went back ws again. rest at the benches again. who knows, _____ nd friends saw us when they came up the escalator :O we were being __________ nd ______ when we were about to go home :X remember this : "never judge a book by its cover". went to the nearest void deck nd pondered about it. we just dont understand ? =( im effing upset nd worried lah. cried lyk a dumbass there, we were so lost i tell you. didn't know what to do alrd.

okays skipped dinner =\ can't be bothered mann. off to sleep its alrd past midnyte.

nytes darling. i still love you so.

ENTRY : i missed you.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY ! jaslyn sent me a msg saying she cut my hfone line off last nyte because i fell asleep in the conference :X hahahs stupid me. went church today morning to collect certificate for confirmation. jaslyn was still asleep when i called her 8469237 tyms today ! ahahs. so we helped her to get hers. anw, everything's with joanna since i had plans to go out nd it was raining VERY heavily =\ hard tym running to the bus stop nd i was too early. met up with cindy at tamp (: it had been quite awhile since i went out with girlfriend.

headed down to bugis. we talked superr alot lah ? hahahahah. walked around parco nd bugis street ; take picture ya AHAH :DD i saw the crown necklaces at only $15 (still able to slash down to lower price) then there was this pretty nyce black jacket with gold wordings ? WE LIKEE. heehees. oh then we went to her marmi's salon cut hair =D trimmed my fringey for cheapcheap only. cindy look so jap ah -cute girl x) tmr photo-taking alrd ): poor awful me with the face, machiam monster with pimples.


then we trained back to tamp because there wasn't much to see alrd lol. finally i got to try the chocolate milkshake from macs ! yummy (: but very full. so we walked somemore hahah. rest at the arcade's spoilt machine hur. we were lyk fooling around lo ? take the gun nd pretend to play "bang!" nd all xDD people walk pass always look in hahahahs. aye, wonderful natalie took the sticky label of "out of order" nd paste it at one of the daytona's machine instead ! HAHAS. we were laughing effing madd pls ! kn stomach pain lols. oh wells, got take picture of it lah ? but i think i deleted it ): lalas mann. went home tgt.

had dinner with family ? parents brought home many yumyumms food :DD ate pepper nd chilli crabs, herbal chicken nd all. hehh ate lyk pig. alrytes, tmr's back to school ! oh my tiann. i shall go catch my sleep now. take care ya.

should i not doubt

ENTRY : you're still part of me-

Because iloveyou whether it's wrong or right ;
nd though i can't be with you by your side
remember my heart's with you.

IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN IMISSBEN
>> :(

made a simple clip/video =)
thought i'd lyk to post it up ? yeaps.
spent quite a long 8hrs on it without slp =\ i hope its okayy.



anw, rushed out today to meet jaslyn nd geraldine (: it was raining though. supposed to go kbox ? but cancelled nd we walked around tamp instead (why is every place so boring ?) hahahs. jaslyn went to say HI to her NFF. ahah then we walked away to han's to snack. thing's got pretty boring so we went walking again =\ until she had to leave for dinner, so left ger nd me. took a busride down to ws, slept through the whole tym 0.0 played with the shades at robinons. oh we also bought the sweetsweet ribbon-earrings ! lalas mann. then ate fries at macs. then ice cream. then twister fries. HAHAH ! oh my tiann we eat so much lah ? nd we were little meanies laughing at people around us xDD funny tym ya. heehees =X HUM GU TAO hor.



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i hate. i HATE. I HATE.
tell me straight what's wrong.
why do i cause so much misery to those around me.
marmi aren't you ever tired of nagging at your own daughter ?
how about sister nd ahkor.
why always push all the blame just to the middle child ; is it better this way ?
can't you see i'm lyk lost for words. i'm effing hurt.
everyone of you can just fark off for now. ='(
i'm sorry for being such a bitch.
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ENTRY : L.O.V.E

it's earlyy in the morning nd i'm still not asleep ; bahh.

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morning =D it's alrd 0748AM. currently still missing my darling -frowns.
anw, was talking to da ge awhile ago online lol.

alrytes, the last 2 pprs of MYE was lyk shiet ahahs. everyone went on about how easy it was nd having the same answers (okay listening wasn't so bad) but just lyk the other pprs, my subscience ppr1 probably died on me too. oh wells. at least everything's over for now so i must relax before olvl MT examination nd those stupid drills they implemented for us.

on that last day, people usually hangout at town or somewhere; even tamp is not too bad yeah ? BUT. we spent the whole day, effing about 11 hrs in pasir ris, slacking all the way. even got a stupid service at macs from those aunties >:((

yet we did many stuff lah ? ate nd slept a whole lot there :DD walked the whole mall lyk always (sheesh). talked nd talked all the way. read some books at the library nd bumped into LITTLE CANDYY hahah ! so 'dao', aye ? stupid guy. then there was jaslyn celeste's NFF ! -new found friend, the blackcharcoal. lols x) so then we left, nd jayne went off. decided to walk at pasir ris park. came upon this big empty stone we climbed on to. wrote stuff nd made wishes ! (:


then the flies disturbed us so we ran away. anyhoo, it was getting dark too. we even went to a dead end haha. geraldine is afraid of dogs, to my surprise xD she didn't want to walk past them initially. teehee. oh we couldn't find another route so had to walk back to ws. it was a wayyy long distance with many mosquitoes =

bought our bubble teas ! went to cool down awhile at a bench in ws. many many army guys ahah superr funny. as we were about to stand up nd leave, saw some ahbengbengs coming up the escalator. then they stared nd said "cindy.. cindy.." (but there was no response from us) so they also said "natalie.. natalie.." OH MY TIANN. it's fking freaky lah ? =X didn't dare look back at those people. cindy do you know them ? i think they're form coralsec.

went home (: conference with them. but jayne left too fast ! the two NFF called in to jaslyn's fone hahahhah. abit awkward, but fun overall. about 2hrs using hfone -pouts.

ytd. supposedly to go out with shir ? but i have no cash ): pretty saddening. then they said to meet at noon so i went. waited for about 50mins for everyone to come tgt =\ now i know how it feels lyk heh. ate ice cream before leaving for the train down to cityhall. jayne nd i were applying oxycover in the train ! hahhahahah. walked around the link =) i love the shades nd accesories there :O

then off to marina square. geraldine got herself the pretty diamante crown belt ! but i lyk the black one though xD ehehehhehs. then ate at the foodcourt, jaslyn shared with me the belgium chocolate-coated marshmellows -yumyums.


left for suntec city. played the drums nd guitars ! :DD superr fun lah. i even have a video of geraldine nd jaslyn on those guitars hee. we all managed to clear through all three stages HAHAH. shall post it up all one day.

went home after. another tiring day of walking, nd i didn't get anything because im broke =( sighs. didn't realise jaslyn msged for conference again =\ i alrd slept ! dead beat. i woke at 0354AM lol. now i'm wondering about the plans for today. lalas x)


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ENTRY : can u feel it.

HI MARCUS. hees funny.

monday
met up in the bus hehh. gave them home-made tea eggs ! lalas man x) amath ppr 1 nd sub biology ppr =\ effing hard ! hai. i left many many white blanks ? then to our usual stopover at macs for study tym. it's difficult for me to handle even the basics for pure chemistry, since i've been failing this subject all the way lah. was distracted lyk always, even in the library. i wasn't happy. went home, cried. i'm so useless i don't think i'm good at anything. also thought over what was brought up today. so whatever.

tuesday
late to catch the last bus lol. so geraldine's dad came to the rescue to give us a ride to school (: thanks girl ! gave out tea eggs again (i feel so lao auntie pls) heehee they love it ! emath ppr2 nd pure chemistry ppr2 were done with =\ i calculated about 30 marks gone for emath ? chemistry was even worse. OMGG i didn't do much. depression state ; syy nd jaslyn worried. friends, im so sorry i don't know why. went tuition class with them at 201.

wednesday
today's the 2nd last day of exam period ~phews. had amath ppr2 nd pure chemistry ppr1. amath is lyk hand in or not - doesn't matter at all ? because there are superr many blank pages. BIG SIGH. wth is wrong with me ? even chemistry's mcq i didn't finish. -screamm. i find no use in studying for tmr's last pprs. rarrh ): went to eat with the girls. had our noodles at the foodcourt instead of macs lol. walked alot around the whole ws, super boring place i tell you hahahs. we can even remember the various shops ! hmm, did silly embarrassing stuff lol. after library nd slacking nd eating, walked home tgt (:

tmr's sub physics/biology ppr1 nd MT listening nd then. NO MORE MYE EXAMS WOOHOOO ! i can't wait xDD i need to treat my awful face soon >:( it's getting worse ; pimples popping lyk popcorns all over lah ? haiyo. i need whatever effective creams. give it over mann !

shirleen wrote me a reply letter :DD i love my girl. gave me many advices, shared with me stuffs. you know, we are bestfriends ! we do everything tgt <3 others =")">"Break down nd cry when you miss ___. And after that, you wld be stronger :) really. It's not 'weak' when you cry; it's just another way of becoming stronger."

Well girl, don't need to be sorry. i'm the one instead. i haven't asked about you eh (: i wanna know alrytes. When you want to get your bag huh ? U ah never tell me when ahah. Tk care.

cindy : we're supposed to go out soon tgt lol. but i'm broke lah. i've got so much to catch up with you. my gf, i hope i haven't been distant =X heh.

* ps chener if you ever see this, i would lyk to say : thanks =)

Mind tells me to give up, but heart won't. It never will;
For faint heart grew stronger when apart from my love;
I'm missing you.

ENTRY : i'm all about loving you-

emath nd geog elective papers are done with. horrendous =\ bahh. my efforts of studying more than 10 hours each have gone to waste. i left 10 marks nd 13 marks respectively, blank-ed.

madd at supermarket with jayne =D we were getting a break from studying on thurs.

// the grouchy garbage monster. she lives in the dustbin ! but now it's too small wahahs.
// the pretty packaging of kit-kat for students ~kitto katsun !

cramps sucks (how random). school ended earlier than usual on friday :DD went ws yet again to study with the usuals. we bought out macs breakfast too ! hees. did pure chemistry reading with jayne while geraldine nd jaslyn did amath. only managed to look through 10 chapters, which i'm not 100% sure of ? -frowns. then we fooled around with cameras nd videos. darn lame lah ? ahhahs. we had sugar biscuits (: high mann.

// it's the sugary biscuity munchy snack. welove !
// toilet mirror lol. geraldine ; jaslyn ; me.

met up again today before noon, but jayne couldn't come >:( macs was crowded. we did some biology reading, having difficulty. my file with ALL MY NOTES are in school :X i haven't attempted my tys either ! but tried those structured questions from the guide book alrd. oh ya we had a madd lower sec boy sitting the next table beside us nd we video-ed him lol. he knows anyway, nd even told us "thanks for finding me so interesting" ; wthh ? ahahah. then had to leave early for dinner with family. hai. supposedly to eat crabs but grandma late lol, so the reservation was taken away -pouts. ate at this other non-airconditioned restaurant instead. 8 dishes no crabs ):

it's the thirteenth day.

transferring files of songs, pictures nd videos with my hfone. it's gnna be early morning ! ehehehhehs :D tmr's just tuition nd home to study. i don't lykk >:( sighs. my life is effing boring lah. it's the same routine that makes it. is there anything interesting ? :O

`females have a lower basal metabolic rate than males. so unfair ! moreover, males have smaller amt of adipose tissues beneath their skin which makes them lose more heat. that's why guys are much skinnier although they eat alot too :X heehees.

ENTRY : unbreak my heart.

on the 1st of May was confirmation. woke up pretty early that morning to doll-up (not really lah) nd tried to look my best. waited for marmi to hurry, then daddy drove us to the church but we were late lol. everyone's looking smartly white ? hees. we're now confirmed alrd ! =) nd sureprise surprise : some nyce friends came to see us xD they got us roses ! aww how sweet (it's still in my room). marmi substituted as my 'godma' though. she did many silly stuff that embarrassed me omg. then both of them got to leave so i went lunching with friends :DD had my bibimbap nd banana yoghurt bubble tea ! yummy.

getting ready for churchh (: self-love. oops.

yet another portray. messy table seen as background wahahah.

from left : jayne ; geraldine ; me ; jaslyn (at church) where's syy, kim nd others ? lol.

from left : me ; joanna ; geraldine ; jayne (at tamp mall) jacq nd jaslyn ? heehee.

mirror-oh-mirror. me nd jaslyn. (exclusively hers)

me nd her again. so lalas x)

i love the pretty rose stalk ! thanks girls, esp syy (=

a happy child currently. lols. the end. //editedd.

other photos aren't with me though :X anyhoo, here's the list of stuff spent >:(
- mng skirt $75
- earrings $3.90
- hairclip $3.90
- charles nd keith white heels $33.90 ($28.80 after disc.)
* total amt : $111.60

MT2 / EL2 on tuesday. Physics P2 / SS just today. bahh =\ everything's going badd. next week is even more hectic with so many mathematics nd sciences. how can i cope ! hai. bet i've lost a lot of careless marks in the previous papers too. also due to time constraints. sigh sigh sigh. ahahs. tmr's emath nd the day after would be geography. i must gambatte nd do well ! yeah mann.

alrytes till another tym i'll add further. tired out ! haven't even studied ever since i got home. rarrh. who cares for now. tatas nd good nytes. have a good sleep then :DD

wo wu fa fang shou ; shi qu zhe ge ai qing.
ying wei wo de xing hai xiang zhe ni.
xi huan de ren hai shi ni wei yi.

ENTRY : that's hot-

okayy. i'm very sure everyone's concentrating on studies while i'm online the whole tym >:( i don't feel like taking any exams ? don't feel the stress lah. sigh.

28th april - happy 2nd mth anniversary darling x) nd to mickeypoohie, our 9th mth =) friday was the start of the examination period. had EL1 / MT1 alrd :\ pretty alryte ? supposedly went a little off-point. went home nd changed before meeting them at ws macs to study. hehh, geraldine wore her cookie monster ! hahahs fooled alot doing retarhded things, went home late at 11plus with marmi :) she had dinner with me.

went out with family on saturday early afternoon for tamp metro sales xD bought girl stuff lah. then sister got to change her hfone to 3G >:( so i got her silly nokia 6670 instead. lalas mann. saw my two juniors in the mall too, heheh. met jaslyn afterwards :DD headed down to town nd got our shopping done. went topshop ! i so loveee there. the tops are prettaye !


then to pacific plaza's ripcurl to use those vouchers. hate those sales people though. got a pair of dumb slippers ($21.90) nd a bright green wallet ($29.90). cheap ahahs. off to fareast to buy our earrings nd food (: back to tamp, she bought her clothes for confirmation. i got my basic mng top. finally home-d, but parents were still out till late. they got me fish n' chips [: yummy.

woke up super late for tuition this morning :X went tamp with jaslyn after it ended. she got her half-jacket nd we had our bubble teas ! ehehehhehs :DD mine's banana yoghurt lah ? quirky. suddenly i went high nd started screaming :O so embarrassing i don't know why lol. must be i was in a wrong state of mind. OH OH ! we had our buns from breadQ nd guess what ? jaslyn made a mess hahah. we bought a red hairclip too ! antic-like.

went home prepared to study. however, i was distracted by chatting :\ then my mum called to fetch me out with the family ? sighs. didn't study for two days alrd. i'm wayy behind from others. alryte so we went to the various starhub shops to suscribe for cable nd all. then rushed to get my confirmation heels (last minute since i just found out my old ones seems to be rusting) so marmi's kind of annoyed. had genki sushi for dinner ! hees. we were the last customer to leave the place. that's all i guess.

tmr's confirmation day. i'm gnna look very awful :'( my dressing is so badd ? nd my face is getting worse. poopsie. so sadd, there wont be many people coming to see us anyway.

i miss ___. how ?
he seems very busy i know. nd i ought to understand.
but i want to see him soon ): it seems 90321484 days to me. hai.

don't wanna be a distant figure. am i no longer impt ?